new job, new will to live

And so from the beginning of October, I have been gainfully employed!!!! Well sort of, its only a Christmas job for 3 months... and its less than 10 hours a week at the minute... but its a start. =) and at least now its something recent to put on my cv other than - last actual paid job was 5 years ago!

I mean I enjoy working for the fabuloso company its with; Lush. I think they are brilliant. I mean, I love the fact I get to work in a shop that smells like heaven, has a VERY eco-friendly ethic, 100% vegetarian and 80% vegan product list. Not to mention, the fact that I get a excellent discount so I can test out products and relate them to the customer!! But as well as this, I haven't had a single working shift yet where I've felt bad.

I mean I feel a little worried that Ill make a big old mess up or something, but I don't think I've made any MAJOR problems, I can now restock, sort the stock room, demo , as well as make a knot wrap out of a vintage scarf and talk to customers without feeling like I'm going to potentially kill them XD; always a bonus. I mean, I won't possibly know as much as the core staff, but I am trying to learn and keep up, doesn't help that my short term memory sucks and if I don't write stuff down, its gone. But as they used to say in school ' repetition, repetition, repetition!' I pretty much constantly look like I am talking to myself if I am not with a customer XD ...

And I love the fact that my skin feels better than ever ^^ its all silky and lovely and sometimes smells like pear drops, and its pretty much consistently glittery from demonstrating the new Xmas massage bar (called Snow Fairy Sparkle) and I smell; like a Terry's Chocolate Orange (again from the snow fair sparkle AND a soap called Orange Jelly).
=D LOVING LIFE right now.
Ok so I only get paid once a month and its about half as much as I would get from being on JSA, but I don't really care to be honest. I'm employed and I'm earning a wage and I'm not relying on the Gov't so they can cease to call me a leach on the taxpayer ... *puts tongue out* NER!!
And actually now I think about it, I'm not relying on my parents either, not that I was while I was on JSA, but now it just feels a little bit more... Me being self reliant. Lol, I can see all the imaginary full time workers going 'you have no idea!'.

And they are sending me on training up in Holborn on Monday, soooo that'll be an education, literally, but I  get to write it all down this time XD. 

So all in all the voices and I are actually feeling a lot more mellow at the minute, I'm not sure whether its the semi-security and confidence boost from finally getting a small job, the essential oils I am pretty much steeped in, the fact I am earning on my own or maybe even a combination of all of the above. But I am definitely happier in myself, mostly. Still a lot of shit going down, but not as bad as before-ish. . .

So there you go really, a recommendation for Lush, product placement, a bit of a update on why I am such a miserable bitch most days and a look towards the near future ;)

The voices and I agree that things are looking up, just slightly